S e n S e S . . .

Relieved.

2006-02-27T11:30:00.000+07:00

I feel relieved. Finally, I tell u what I really want to tell after waiting for months. Love u..

-fer-

It's complicated. Ikhtiar, Tawakal, & Ikhlas.

2006-02-26T08:12:00.000+07:00

"It's complicated". What are u thinking when u read the phrase? I bet u would think about friendster status. Honestly, I don't understand what it means. But, that is not what I am going to write.

My life is complicated. Especially when it comes into "making decision". Many things I have to consider berfore I make it. Hehe, it's so funny because my final project is about "making decision", while I still have difficulties to make my own. Well, making decision for ourselves is more complicated than making it for a company, hehe. Especially when the decision is connected to feeling called "LOVE", huahaha. Why? because love is too beautiful to lose, while we have to consider many more "rational things" that might be contrary with the LOVE we feel.

So, why is it complicated? Because we're afraid of facing the consequences of the decision. "Is it the right way?" or "How if it isn't like we hope?" or "Can I face all of the consequences of this decision?" and many other "ors". Well, like I said in my previous post, we don't know the model. We will never know wheter the way we take is the right way or not. Only God knows.
Hmm, and talking about God, God will always know. So we should ask God about making difficult decision. My religion teach me to do "Istikharah Pray" when we face difficult decision to make, hoping we will get a direction from God.

The next question would be? How do we know that it God's direction? Again, we will never know. We have just to believe it. Besides, my religion also teach me about "ikhtiar" and "tawakal" in all things. It means we have to do the best and "ikhlas" to accept all consequences from God, because all of the things happen on Earth is God will.

So, "istikharah", believe it, do the best, and "ikhlas". And believe that it IS the best way for us. Anything bad could turn into a great learning. My friend once said, "If we have done the best we can do, the result would be also the best for us." So it is our choice to make it the best way or not. It is our choice to decide being happy or miserable. Everything is about "ikhlas".

[Well Ferry, so many words u write. So have u done all of it? Or it is just here? Only become words? So, are u dare to do it?]

Shocked. Be Prepared.

2006-01-30T18:44:00.000+07:00

Hmm. Where & how should I start?

Every human being has personal expectations and hopes. Those bring passions for us to live the life. And the passions give us a big number of energy to do the best we can to meet our personal expectations and hopes. Unfortunately, as a human being, we don't know exactly wheter the effort we do make us closer to the hope or not. Why? Because we don't know the "hopes model" exactly. Only GOD knows. We can only approach it. [gileboanaktibgtsih]

Then, when the times comes and the hope is not going to happen, even the worse comes, we will feel angry, dissapointed, shocked, or even frustrated. And the cliche words come to emphatize, "Hey, get up! You have to manage yourself. All have already been planned, you have to face it. It's not your destiny to get. There is something much better waiting for you in the future. Come on, you will get over it.." Yeah, yeah I know it. That's true. I am trying to convince myself about it. But it is not as easy as it said to believe.

When I faced those tough moments, I come to my friends and what they do is only say the magic cliche words. But, it is not the thing that does really matter. It is not the words you said who make me get up, wipe my tears, and ready for the next. It is having you guys by side who made it.. It is you who make me strong, not the words. I know I have to be ready to face everything more shocking by myself. But having you guys, helps & means a lot.

For Romy, Yoan, Vern, Ana, Nita, Susi, Chike thanks a lot guys.. You are the very best!

Faults. Wrong. Make up.

2006-01-30T18:42:00.000+07:00

As a human being, we do sometimes or maybe often something wrong. Wrong for GOD, our job, our boss, our friends, or even for people we love. Yes, it's all faults. We may have many reasons behind those, -like, "I didn't mean to" or "I don't know it would be like this" or something else- but it cannot be excuses. In fact, we have done something wrong and it may hurts even people we love.

I always feel bad when I did something that hurt people I love. I do love them, why I did something that hurt them? I can't answer that, until know. People said that I am a very insensitive person who cannot have a symphaty or emphaty for others. That makes me often hurt people without realizing it. Ok, that's my minuses, but I'll do better and I have done it even it has not been better enough.

So, making wrongs and hurts other might be a very "human things". There are some that learned from it, while the others don't. Believe me, I am trying very hard to be the learners. I don't want to hurt poeple I love twice with the same things. So please, give me a chance to make it up -even I don't know how with recent situatuion-, I won't let you down. I promise.

Your Dominant Intelligence is Interpersonal Intelligence

2005-02-14T19:58:00.000+07:00

You shine in your ability to realate to and understand others.Good at seeing others' points of view, you get how people think and feel. You have an uncanny ability to sense true feelings, intentions, and motivations. A natural born leader, you are great at teaching and mediating conflict. You would make a good counselor, salesperson, politician, or business person.

It was what http://www.blogthings.com/ been said to me from my questions for the test.

Titik Awal.

2004-11-25T12:21:00.000+07:00

Titik Awal. Dalam Bahasa Inggris sering dikenal dengan istilah Starting Point. Walupun hanya sebuah 'titik', titik ini menjadi sangat fenomenal ketika kita mengawali sesuatu. Banyak orang berpendapat bahwa titik awal ini akan menentukan apa yang akan terjadi di titik-titik berikutnya...

Di kalangan umat Islam, dikenal ungkapan, "Segala sesuatu dilihat dari niatnya..." Dan niat merupakan sesuatu yang kita bangun di titik awal. Yang pasti, saya menorehkan titik awal sebagai blogger dengan niat yang baik, menulis dan membaca hidup... Semoga proses ke depan akan berjalan dengan baik karena niat yang baik ini. Semoga juga akan berakhir dengan khusnul khatimah. Amin.

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